This time last year, I found myself on the edge of a panic attack, wondering what the hell I was doing. I stared out the window at Lower Manhattan in February feeling overwhelmed, intimidated, and worried. Could I do this? Would they like me? Will I totally make a fool of myself? Who do I think I am exactly? And yet, despite all my fear and trepidation, I fell in love with every single person in the training program at The Interdependence Project, including myself (hello, surprise). And I fell in love with New York City.
At home, I decided to start the year by seeing a therapist. Something I haven't really talked about here, but now...why not? It was one of the best decisions I made this year and I would recommend it to anyone and everyone.
I also finally (finally) got out of credit card debt. Woohoo! And it was in part due to this fabulous book, Money: A Love Story by Kate Northrup. Get it. Go get it right now.
In May, I lost my Mema. In June, my Grandmother. I read The Year of Magical Thinking by Joan Didion and squeezed myself inside out with grief. I questioned death and contemplated my own.
I had my first Photography show at the Austin Zen Center.
I stood up to my father lovingly and honestly. Something I've been trying to do my entire life.
I Bollywood danced.
I curled up on a warm couch in Brooklyn and watched the snow fall outside (thank you Airbnb).
Just after Christmas I discovered I have hypothyroidism, a condition I will need to treat for the rest of my life.
To say this year has been full would be an understatement. When I sat down to focus on Susannah Conway's Unravelling the Year Ahead and reviewed 2013, I was surprised by how much I've done and how much this year has changed me.
What will 2014 bring? Am I ready?
A few of my favorite things from 2013:
(What I'm listening to right now: Strong by London Grammar)